Here I am. I’m back on the blog. This was definitely not the way I expected to dive back into the blogosphere, but if you’ve followed this blog in the past, you know that I have always written from my heart. Tonight is no different.
Hurricane Florence is currently putting the east coast of the U.S. in it’s sights. We live ever so slightly to the north of where it seems to be headed. That’s not a good thing. Right now, they are anticipating us dealing with tropical storm force winds, heavy rain and flooding. No fun at all.
Here’s the thing. We are constantly monitoring and evaluating what we should do. If nothing changes, our current plan is to ride it out. This is what has made today one of those days.
This is the first major event to happen in my life since the loss of my parents. Dad passed away on 7/12/17 and Mom passed away on 3/15/18. Typically when facing something like this, my first reaction would be to reach out for my phone and call my Dad to get his counsel. Should we leave? How do I attempt to properly secure our house? Can we crash at your place if we do leave? I couldn’t do that tonight and it just about killed me.
I had heard people say that when you lose your parents you feel like an orphan and until March of this year, I never could quite wrap my head around that. Mom and Dad were there for me at every stage of life. Even when we disagreed, I never doubted their love and concern for me. To suddenly not be able to go where you always go for counsel is a kick in the gut. You feel alone in that moment, and it sucks.
I also need to say that I have the most amazing wife and children that anyone could ask for. They have been such a strong support for me over this past year and I never want to short change how much they mean to me. But there’s something different about being able to ask your parents for advice.
Why do I say all of this? I don’t know, really. Maybe it’s my way of encouraging those of you who still have your parents to not take a single moment with them for granted. You never know when you will have your last conversation with them.